Monty and Jade Episode 2

Monty:
it's just taming your mind to not make life so god damn difficult for you
cuz so much shit that's been put into our minds all our lives has become our "norm"
and if your "norm" is "a fuckload of BS and negativity"
what kinda life are you gonna live?
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Jade:
YES
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Monty:
whenever that snooty, purse-lipped librarian in your brain decides to show you an Encyclopedia of How You Were Mistreated As a Child, tell him to pull out a different book instead
get what i mean?
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Jade:
YES!
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Monty:
just re-training our minds, which are programmed to do what they've been receiving all their lives
=]
ancient Samurai used to advise "Make your mind your best friend."
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Jade:
yeah i just went psycho on this guy
he hung in there
but..
it was just the tip of the ice burg

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Monty:
gotta tame that hurricane inside your brain, love
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Jade:
hahaha
i know
He dodged my questions
well always gave me a "fair answer"
no depth
but i know he's very capable of it
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Monty:
don't be bustin that out on me now!
*takes cover*
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Jade:
bustin what out?
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Monty:
the over-analytical stuffs
well you're building awareness as it is, then
hehe
at least you realized that your mind went outta control and got the best of you
cuz now you'll be on the lookout
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Jade:
EXACLTY
and he caught on too
I felt so embarassed

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Monty:
hahaha yea
i know how that goes
you live and ya learn
i'm quite awesome at making an ass of myself
but as long as you learn somethin from it
who's judgin?
juuust you
so STAPPIT
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Jade:
LOL!

I know
fuck.
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Monty:
so you can stop over-analyzing your embarrassment
or something
i am a healthy distraction *flex*
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Jade:
LOL!
i think what stirred me up was when he wanted to know something out of curiosity....
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Monty:
and ya got defensive?
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Jade:
YES
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Monty:
was he asking about something that genuinely bothered you that you felt like you had to retaliate?
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Jade:
NO.
but i felt dissected
like yes ..i know .."intriguing"
im am intriguing...but, it's nothing to be curious about.
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Monty:
last time i thought you were intriguing you attempted to rip me a new asshole
so yea i know what that poor bastard was in for
=P
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Jade:
YES!!!!
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Monty:
why so defensive about people wanting to know who you are, though?
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Jade:
cause the ones closest hurt the most.
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Monty:
i see
i hope that does NOT mean that you anticipate being hurt by those close to you..?
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Jade:
i dont know n e more
people change...constantly...
but im ready for them
but only on my terms will i allow them to get close.
sorry.
thats just how it is from here on out.
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Monty:
hehe i see
well spare yourself the trouble
don't build walls to defend against me
cuz i ain't tryin to attack you
never have, never will
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Jade:
i know
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Monty:
i don't know the kind of people you konw, Jade
but if it means that you constnatly feel like you gotta defend yourself
maybe you need better people in your life
*shrug* just sayin
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Jade:


I KNOW
and im in the process of doing that
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Monty:
awesome!
=]
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Jade:
it hurts though
these poeple have been long time friends.
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Monty:
I know...
been there... done that...
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Jade:
FUCK
okay..
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Monty:
i've known Jason for 10 years
he's not my friend anymore
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Jade:
so here i am ...one step behind ya
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Monty:
we were practically brothers
nobody's behind anybody
we're side-by-side
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Jade:
True.


Monty:
it's just habits putting up a fight against the new norm you're trying to establish
your body's saying, "What's this? Sensible benevolence?! New information that's helpful?! Nonsense. Let's duel."
and as long as you're persistent, whatever you want your norm to be, it will be that

Jade:
Yep.
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Monty:
CLARO QUE SI!!!
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Jade:
fuck for a second there i thought i was losing my mind. I thought "OH no..it was ALL FAKE...All this goody-good life stuff"
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Monty:
minds can run away from us easy if we let them
and a lot of people do
lol
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Jade:
LOL!!
get awaayy frm my conscioussss!
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Monty:
i'm scurred