Altruistic Reality By June Child.

"Deep thoughts have been heavily imprisoned with notions and endless dreams. Notions have been gently untangled by an altruistic reality, and acceptance has become a trusted ally. This ally stands on the sidelines and watches friends or fanatic foes discreetly: a watch tower. Catalyst, Red Doors, decorated with purpose, open, and I enter. Manifestation beckons me.

Because of this reason, I must Reason with the heart.

Deep feeling is an inheritence that has endowed me with experiences wrapped in passion, and a yearning that yearns to be yearned, but although this inheritence has been potently driving the reins of my spirit, I have concluded that in this present day my status stands as an Empath seeking disambiguation of emotions and thoughts within the realms of myself and within the realms of rationalization. In this process, I will reveal the lessons and hope for the ponder of an audience. My success is not measured by the common day standard, but rather through the clarity of one or beyond. An unconscious movement is my focus. A cause beckons me and a noble strength rises.

A Cause that says :

"We are visitors on this planet. We are here for ninety or one hundred years at the very most. During that period, we must try to do something good, something useful with our lives. If you contribute to other people's happiness, you will find the true goal, the true meaning of life. "


Although, in all honesty, an underlying fear lurks, I quickly disarm it with an acceptance and a will that is good. Mother Earth embraces me for she is the Hierophant.

Behind me, I leave the engagement of Absolute Love, but I must clarify, I do not confuse the disengagement with a Jaded affair with Love. The Universe is simply pushing me to a mind-field of opportunities that I have yet to discover. I am thankful.

There are different ways to love. To love under the grand infinite star lit skies. To Love through subtleties that stream through intricate moments in time. I savor this notion of Love for it allows the truth of days to resonate freely with purpose. An underlying faith grounds me and nourishes me throughout the bullshit."

When the Mind Feels Reason to Reason with the Heart.

Learn to distinguish the difference between errors of knowledge and breaches of morality. An error of knowledge is not a moral flaw, provided you are willing to correct it; only a mystic would judge human beings by the standard of an impossible, automatic omniscience. But a breach of morality is the conscious choice of an action you know to be evil, or a willful evasion of knowledge, a suspension of sight and of thought. That which you do not know, is not a moral charge against you; but that which you refuse to know, is an account of infamy growing in your soul. Make every allowance for errors of knowledge; do not forgive or accept any breach of morality. Give the benefit of the doubt to those who seek to know; but treat as potential killers those specimens of insolent depravity who make demands upon you, announcing that they have and seek no reasons, proclaiming, as a license, that they “just feel it”—or those who reject an irrefutable argument by saying: “It’s only logic,” which means: “It’s only reality.” The only realm opposed to reality is the realm and premise of death.


“When I disagree with a rational man, I let reality be our final arbiter; if I am right, he will learn; if I am wrong, I will; one of us will win, but both will profit.”

"Behind Every Damsel is a Fire Breathing Dragon."

"Im a palm reader. *Gasp!* You'll die, but don't worry. You'll live through it."

"You have ONE advantage over me. You can kiss my ass, and I can't."

"There is a light at the end of every tunnel. Just pray it's not a train."

"Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens." - Carl Jung

"To love someone is to see him as God intended him" - Fydor Dostoyevsky

"Cauliflower is nothing but cabbage with a college education." — Mark Twain.

"A closed mouth gathers no feet."

“We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once, before a word has been spoken.” - Fydor Dostoevsky

"If people concentrated on the really important things in life, there'd be a shortage of fishing poles."

"Someday, we'll look back on this, laugh nervously and change the subject."

"Betrayels in war are childlike when compared with our betrayals during peace. New lovers are nervous and tender but smash everything, for the heart is an organ of fire...for the heart is an organ of fire..."

An Important Message by June Child.

"Felllllllow minions from Veeeeenus... I call upon thee, and I persuade you to join me in my pre menstual syndromic rant! Raise your voices, be heard, and allow your estrogen drenching souls to be heard! I preferebly call this time my "moon time",and if allowed, I will ecstatically explain why! There are a few reasons why I believe that our menstrual cycle is tightly associated with the moon. Like the Moon, we go through a 28 day cycle. It takes 28 days for that 1/12th of a pea size egg to pass through our ovarian tubes and like this process, the moon goes through a 28 day cycle. Also, through out, history we associate the moon with emotions. And with this, our woman hood rises to the surface and during this time, WHAT do we experience ladies!? Not only do we encounter a Physical shift, where our lower abdomen expands to welcome this invasive, instrusive process that enflates our ovarian tubes and tenderizes our euphoria,filled, love sacks, but we are also forced to cater or combat our psychological stabillity, and our emotional upheavals. But these emotional upheavals arent meant to do damage! They are meant to gently shake things up. Truth is, people arent very comfortable with that!, but it surely doesnt make it wrong!! The power of emotion and our hormones is sadly misinterpreted, but our task is to control it and use it for the greater good! "

And Today I will Exploit my Biggest Strength: My Sexuality.

Trace, Grace, and Face.

To the Past. You have molded him into a foreign object made of clay, and the hands that molded were fragile and inexperienced: I wish your mold was a bowl that could sustain the least bit of substance, but instead it's easily found to be useless. Not even aesthetically appealing. It just is. You serve no purpose, at least, not for me. The Past has found me virtuous and it has graced me into a irreplaceable sculpture made of crystal. Something bright and immaculate graces me and I feel radiant. I'm displayed behind red ropes and piercing eyes graze my skin, but don't penetrate. I walk further along this exhibition and I find photos hanging, as if from a noose. They are just photos after all..."Faded photographs, covered now with lines and creases...Memories of bits and pieces,Traces...." Meaning fading fast. Rekindle only the fire within myself. You are no longer a sounding board... You just sound really bored. You seek Romance, passion, desire, and euphoria. I just want someone that can say this to me: "The day you love someone else more than me, please leave." That sort of conviction will ease my wrath. That sort of promise soothes my spirit and seeps through the cracks of the bricks that have built this wall. My actions are no longer a reflection of my feelings. Only those with a good will, and a clean canvas, will draw me out: pretty pictures that show subliminal messages of my deep committed love and loyalty. Can You hear me? Can you see me? Can you feel me? No. You can't, and I'm beyond content with that realization.

Monty and Jade Episode 2

Monty:
it's just taming your mind to not make life so god damn difficult for you
cuz so much shit that's been put into our minds all our lives has become our "norm"
and if your "norm" is "a fuckload of BS and negativity"
what kinda life are you gonna live?
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Jade:
YES
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Monty:
whenever that snooty, purse-lipped librarian in your brain decides to show you an Encyclopedia of How You Were Mistreated As a Child, tell him to pull out a different book instead
get what i mean?
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Jade:
YES!
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Monty:
just re-training our minds, which are programmed to do what they've been receiving all their lives
=]
ancient Samurai used to advise "Make your mind your best friend."
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Jade:
yeah i just went psycho on this guy
he hung in there
but..
it was just the tip of the ice burg

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Monty:
gotta tame that hurricane inside your brain, love
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Jade:
hahaha
i know
He dodged my questions
well always gave me a "fair answer"
no depth
but i know he's very capable of it
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Monty:
don't be bustin that out on me now!
*takes cover*
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Jade:
bustin what out?
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Monty:
the over-analytical stuffs
well you're building awareness as it is, then
hehe
at least you realized that your mind went outta control and got the best of you
cuz now you'll be on the lookout
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Jade:
EXACLTY
and he caught on too
I felt so embarassed

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Monty:
hahaha yea
i know how that goes
you live and ya learn
i'm quite awesome at making an ass of myself
but as long as you learn somethin from it
who's judgin?
juuust you
so STAPPIT
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Jade:
LOL!

I know
fuck.
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Monty:
so you can stop over-analyzing your embarrassment
or something
i am a healthy distraction *flex*
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Jade:
LOL!
i think what stirred me up was when he wanted to know something out of curiosity....
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Monty:
and ya got defensive?
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Jade:
YES
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Monty:
was he asking about something that genuinely bothered you that you felt like you had to retaliate?
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Jade:
NO.
but i felt dissected
like yes ..i know .."intriguing"
im am intriguing...but, it's nothing to be curious about.
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Monty:
last time i thought you were intriguing you attempted to rip me a new asshole
so yea i know what that poor bastard was in for
=P
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Jade:
YES!!!!
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Monty:
why so defensive about people wanting to know who you are, though?
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Jade:
cause the ones closest hurt the most.
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Monty:
i see
i hope that does NOT mean that you anticipate being hurt by those close to you..?
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Jade:
i dont know n e more
people change...constantly...
but im ready for them
but only on my terms will i allow them to get close.
sorry.
thats just how it is from here on out.
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Monty:
hehe i see
well spare yourself the trouble
don't build walls to defend against me
cuz i ain't tryin to attack you
never have, never will
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Jade:
i know
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Monty:
i don't know the kind of people you konw, Jade
but if it means that you constnatly feel like you gotta defend yourself
maybe you need better people in your life
*shrug* just sayin
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Jade:


I KNOW
and im in the process of doing that
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Monty:
awesome!
=]
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Jade:
it hurts though
these poeple have been long time friends.
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Monty:
I know...
been there... done that...
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Jade:
FUCK
okay..
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Monty:
i've known Jason for 10 years
he's not my friend anymore
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Jade:
so here i am ...one step behind ya
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Monty:
we were practically brothers
nobody's behind anybody
we're side-by-side
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Jade:
True.


Monty:
it's just habits putting up a fight against the new norm you're trying to establish
your body's saying, "What's this? Sensible benevolence?! New information that's helpful?! Nonsense. Let's duel."
and as long as you're persistent, whatever you want your norm to be, it will be that

Jade:
Yep.
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Monty:
CLARO QUE SI!!!
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Jade:
fuck for a second there i thought i was losing my mind. I thought "OH no..it was ALL FAKE...All this goody-good life stuff"
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Monty:
minds can run away from us easy if we let them
and a lot of people do
lol
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Jade:
LOL!!
get awaayy frm my conscioussss!
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Monty:
i'm scurred